gold,
my grandfather died the day after september 11th, because of what was going on at the time it didnt hit me for a while.. not for a few years actually.. then i thought how i was glad he had passed so he didnt have to see what was going on in the world since his death..
both of my grandfathers are my idols, two completely different men that make up everything i am today.
their memories give me alot of self respect and pride, sounds like yours does as well.